Never Good Enough

The feeling of doubt, overtakes the mind, 
of those who are less content.
Hurting those around them
with less that no intent. 

"Am I worth the time he gives?"
Screams the voice inside my mind. 
It's hard to believe, I must admit, 
that life could be this kind. 

She's not good enough for him, she knows. 
She feels it in her heart. 
But she can't bring herself to see, the thought of being Apart.

She loves this boy, she feels its true. 
She's never felt this way.
But the weight of atelophobia, she feels,
should not be left at bay. 

She wishes he knew, how hard it is, 
to live with this stupid brain, 
complete with the worry of when he wakes up,
he'll see how much more he can gain. </3

Zumo De Mango
That is all.

Today

So, there's the thing with my mother being completely homophobic and everything...
And I just wind her up, ya know, as you do.
So, I fixed my little sisters Ipod...
Mother: "How did you get liz's ipod to work?!"
Me: "Because I'm a "Lesbian", and lesbians have superpowers."

Emily: 1 Mother: 0.

Zumo De Mango.
That is all.

My Friend

You were my inspiration, my muse, my song.
'Till feelings of doubt and regret came along.
Regret of the future, not yet passed,
And doubt of the present, the doubt it would last.
The feeling one has, when one finds ones friend,
To a woman, is over come and twisted round the bend.
For women seek security, companionship and love,
When all they need is friendship, pure as a dove.
I realised too late, that's what I craved,
And I begged hopelessly, that it could be saved.
I felt trapped, and scared, I loved you too much,
But I didn't feel right, with the way that you touched.
I needed a friend, I turned you a foe,
I tried to push you away, but I loved you so.
Do not think it was, time wasted in vain,
But I should have spoken, taken time to complain.
Oh, The things people say, Or write, or do,
Can make you realise, how much you miss being you.
Some change for others without their consent,
Then realise their actions and rise to repent.
It’s the people you love that warn you to heed.
And make you realise, they’re all that you need.
When you’re broken, they’ll help you mend.
And love you completely. ‘Till the very end.

Parody of "love story" by taylor swift.

You’re on the phone with your daughter,

She’s upset,

She’s going on about something your ex said,

You shouldn’t choose your ex just before her,

She’s crying in her room, wishing you’d just be her dad.

I can’t believe you would let her be so sad.

One day she could grow up, not want to know you.

Chorus

Your ex is in a hostel,

And she’s anorexic,

She bit her first daughter,

And that’s how is started,

I just think about the day when you wake up and find,

What we’ve been telling you has been right the whole time,

 And can’t you see that we’re the ones that tried to tell you?

All this time how could you not know?

Andeeeeee, she doesn’t want to know me.

She don’t wanna know me.

Walking down the street with my head held down in shame,

I can’t believe she thinks I’m the one to blame.

It’s so hard living with deceit and deception.

Torn at the seams are left two young girls so frail.

She’d throw away her own family for one old male.

What you doing with a woman like that?

Why can’t you man up and be her dad?

Me and my sister wrote this in our times of desperation. </3

You'll See.

You're the most perfect boy I ever cold need.
Why can't you see that? You're blinded by greed.
I knew there was something when you kissed like you did.
But out of my hands, of course you slid.
I couldn't hold on. You lost interest.
I gave you everything. More than my best.
Now you ignore me when I try to speak.
And make out it's because you're mild and meek.
Just you watch out babe, you'll run out of luck.
I wont come running when you say you're stuck.
Your heart will break, and your mind will ache.
You'll realise using me was a big mistake
Hold on honey, to those hundereds of whores.
Soon you'll know, I'm what you want and more.

A Lesson Well Learned

I spent every moment thinking of you,
And now you’ve torn me apart.
You filled my head
And stole my bed.
And now you’ve taken my heart.
I tried to be, everything you’d need
And thought you could love me too.
How stupid of me!
I tried not to see
The world revolves around you.
You killed me, you evil boy
You’ve ripped my heart to shreds
You used me, abused me
And made your way to my bed.
Did I really deserve to be used?
Then thrown unto the ground?
You played me along for six long months,
Without even making a sound.
I’m hurt, I’m ruined, I’m banished from the world.
To stay away from you: A lesson well learned.

Sisters Duet

So here is a video of me and my little sister singing.
Be aware she's 11... So... No hate...
:)

Zumo De Mango.

That is all.

Lips.

So.... Here is a picture of my lips.
Nothing special about them...
But I love them.
Everyone should love their lips...
Because where would we be without them?
Apriciation for lips! YAY!

Zumo de Mango.
That is all.

Itsa mee. Mariooo!

So... Here is another of my video's....
Explaining who I am...
And creating a lemon plant....
Yaaaay! ;)
Enjoys.

Zumo De Mango.

That is all.

Updattle!

Hey Guys!
I'm sorry I haven't been posting things onto youtube of facebook recently.... I've been slightly ill...
(With pneumonia)

So.... I shall overcome my illness.... and become king!
For all to see.

Muahahaha!
I walked into school yesterday to do some revision after school... and the looks people gave me for not wearing uniform.
It was EPIC!

I can conqeur the world!!!
But, If I were anything close to normal, I would have wanted to be in school uniform...

But having an illness caused by pure cold, I thought it only right to wear a dress to school...

Oh yeah.

Zumo De mango...
That is all.

(I love you all, my little bed posts!)

Do I have visions?

So, Last night I was sleeping, and dreamt I went shopping with someone that I haven't seen in 7 years.
I wake up, and she's added me on facebook.

I dreamt that I was kissing a certain someone...
And they asked me out today.

I dreamt I was standing alone, singing on a stage,
I recieve news I'm going to be "Kicked out" of our band.

I think my mind is magic,
Just like my friends' boob that itches when it's going to rain.

This is serious you guys....
I think I'm magic!

I KNOW I'M MAGIC! <3


Zumo De Mango
That is all.

School!

So here is a video I made about school.
I intned to do a few more video's....
It's just attempting to make interesting video's... Without rambling... Don't want to fall into that trap...
So... Here it is...
Newest video. :)

Ranty Rabbit.

Lol.
Am I getting confident of what?? O.o
Another youtube video?
This can't be right...

It gets better!

So, yeah... I got incredibly bored on New Years Eve....
So... I Made another Youtube video.
Huge step for me there. :) Whooo!
Moving up in the world!
Always wanted courage to do this! 
Almost 200 views on my blog in just under a month!
That's more than I could ever have asked for! Thankyou!!!
Give yourself a good old pat on the shoulder....
And if you can't... A pat on the leg should suffice. <3

I love you all!
Zumo De mango.
That is all.

One Difficult Thing.

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my life. And I love the time I have for me. Everything is perfect...
Except....
My mother has a problem with my sexuallity...
She doesn't like the fact that I am bi-sexual.
It's not very nice to know, that if you were married to someone, regardless of how happy you were, if they were of the same sex, your mother would not attend...
Apparently, It's "unnatural" and "more or less beastiallity".
No, Correct me if I'm wrong, But I have never looked at a pig and thought... "ooh, can't wait to have a go on that"
I don't care what anyone thinks of me...
But it's hard not to care when It's your mother.
It's quite upsetting...

Zumo De Mango.
That is all.

Dreams!

So, Here is my personal list of the sexiest men alive,

So here they are. (In no particular order)

Brendan Fraser

Oh yes!! What I wouldn't give for a touch of those abs! PHWOAR!!! He was incredible in the family film "George of the jungle". He portrayed himself as the expected "jungle boy", but didn't stick to the conventions of typical hottie. His clumsiness, among other things, were highlighted as faults, but he made those faults entice us to love him more. He was AMAZING in "The mummy" Saga, as Rick O'conell, and he was portrayed as a rough-tough American that cared about keeping himself alive. But as the story progresses, you find he's a sensitive and loveable, gorgeous character that you keep in your heart forever. Well done you sexy beast!

Stefan James Donald John Abingdon

Whoa! I'm taken back by this mother of lushness! He's the lead singer in the amazing band "The midnight Beast", which happens to be my favourite band. He's got such charisma and he's so funny. He just lives for a laugh and doesn't let anything get in his way. He's been in other great bands like "Icarus Burning" , "The clik clik" and "The midnight Patrol", But none as incredible as "The Midnight Beast". He's got the most amazing accent, and If you haven't seen his video's on youtube, I highly recommend you do. (Other band members include the gorgeous Andrew Wakely and the dazzling Ashley Horne, Whom you might have had the pleasure of seeing in "Doctor who" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0mH5epMSp4&feature=fvst 

Ashley Neil Horne

His Name is Ashley Neil Horne. He's more wanted than the top shelf porn. This little goddess is the second member of "The Midnight Beast". He's the one with all the sexual innuendo’s. You just fall in love with those eyes of his. He's a great actor, He's a great singer. He's Gorgeous!

Johnny Depp

Go on. Tell me you don't want him. He's Gorgeous! And one of the best actors in the world! Best known for his spectacular show of "Pirates of the Caribbean", He uses his mind-blowing skills to portray a vast amount of personalities. We witness his darkest, yet humblest side in "Sweeney Todd" Yet the complete opposite, a carefree drunk with a lot of idea's in "Pirates of the Caribbean". I take my hat off to this man. He's gorgeous! And really works for what he has. <3

Brad Pitt

WOWW!!!! Phwoar!  You want one? Heh. This man I would tap with more than a stick let me tell you! His acting genre is that of a chosen, nimble role. One queries as to his true personality in real life. You bawl your eyes out over "Benjamin Button" and urge to be beside him in "Troy". He seems like such a sensitive person... You just want to gobble him up, and dunk him in your coffee. And not to mention that fancy body he has going there. ;) PHWOAR!!!

Leonardo Dicaprio

We all know him. He's the ultimate chilli-pepper from the 90's. He won everybody's heart in the spectacular "Titanic" classic. He strides into your heart with every film he's presenting himself in. You melt with romance in "Romeo and Juliet" And you have to empathise and feel sorry for him in "Inception". He's a timeless classic that we shall never lose! Can you hear the titanic song?? Haha!

Robert Downey Jr

Oh yes please!!! Could I have fries with that? Look at him! He's literally got "Sexy" Written right across the gorgeous face of his! He stuns his audience in "Sherlock Holmes" and "Iron Man “with his sexy, charismatic and funny attitude. He portrays himself as a charmer, that has his ways with the ladies. Well, Forgive me when I say, He can have my way any day!!

Dick Van Dyke

We all remember this sexy fudge! He was the ultimate charmer, with the worst cockney accent! Fun lovable "Caractacus Potts" In "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang" and the jumpy, full of smiles chimney sweep named "Bert", jumps into your heart, with a collection of songs and smiles for all the family to enjoy. He was such a good looking bloke, right up to the day of his decent. You will be missed hun! Television life wouldn't be the same without you!!

Well, I'm sure there's more that we all find mind-boggling...

But these are just the first that spring to mind. Gorgeous aren't they? All my boys you see! ;)

We're all going to run away together... You'll see.

Zumo De Mango

That is all.

Phew!

So... Like...
I just... like..
Uploaded my first video of myself to youtube....
Whoa that was scary.
Used inspiration from My friend Hannah
http://killjoyblogs.blogspot.com/
Check her out. She's AMAZING!

So... Here is my new video... Maybe I'll make more...
Hopefully more origional ones though... Not like this one.

Holy Shit! Only just realised it's 4:40am.
Well... There goes my sleeping pattern.

Zumo De Mango.
That is all.

Say "No".

Don't you just hate it when people intimidate you to get what they want from you?
And do things, to make you repent?
The strongest word any person can possess, is that of a simple: "No"
The power to say that to your enemies is of a lesser quantity than the power to say no to your friends, and even lesser than those who intimidate you.
People will respect a person that has the courage to oppose their intimidators.
But once you master it, and once you apply it to your life, you and you alone can conquer anything.
At the end of the day, what is intimidation?
The power of influence over somebody using the tool of fear.
Say "No". Just once.

Zumo De Mango.

That is all.

Aaaahhh!

Have you ever wondered what life would be like if your parents pretended to be in your shoes for one day?
Just to empathise with you?
DON'T.
So, right now... I have 10 year old parents.
They are downstairs.
In their, "specially bought pyjamas" -(Like the ones they had when they were childeren)
They have moved my ENTIRE living room around.
To make a den.
To watch a cartoon.
And eat Strawberry laces.
I have a feeling me and my younger sister (12), being upstairs, are missing something.
Oh well, you only live once.

"Ahoy there captain, Got any room on yer ship there to be watching that cartoon there matieee?"

Zumo de Mangooo.
That is all.

Bet you're jealous!

So here's the thing.
Johnny Depp, David Tennant, Brad Pitt and I are eloping together to a far away place.
Just thought I'd say, because, ya'know... You're bound to envy me.
We're going to have a nice house on a hill, and have "chums over every friday".
You're all invited of course.... Ooh... except you.... No, not you, You on the left, NO Two next to her! YOU! Yes you.
Envy me.
We're going to have a picnic, with spicy Dorito's... And... Strawberry milkshake.
And we're going to have a massive matress that fills a whole room and it's going to be filled with blankets and pillows and pudding. Muahahahaha!
And we're going to watch films, and discuss how much better all of them would be as those roles...
And then we're going to act scenes out.
It will be SUCH fun!
Then when we're tired, we'll all cuddle down in the matress room, and talk about everything.
And be so happy that we've found eachother.

Zumo de mango.
That is all.